If I were to commit suicide I would hope you'd now why... I cry everday, for what? over you? you were my hope, my world, the only thing in this world that kept me going, kept me feeling, kept me sane.... but then you betrayed me... my love... my trust... 'One soul, split in two'... 'I'll never leave you'... 'you can trust me'...... all the sweet promises and hopes you gave me... I spent almost a year of my life with you... It was one of the best I'd ever had... I wish that maybe you'd die... just so I could cry without a care... no one would yell at me to stop... people would give me time... but your still alive... still here haunting me, I cant think without you popping into my head... cant sleep because every dream is a nightmare... your always here... I hate you.... I gave you everything when you gave me nothing... went through hell for you... for what? to have you rip me to shreds... to be thrown away like a peice of trash... was I just a toy for you to play with? you asked me to marry you... and I said yes without hesiatation... because you were the one for me... you were perfect... perfect to me.... I gave you all that I possibley could....and now I'm just an empty shell... nothing left of the girl my mom calls her daughter... no longer daddy's little girl... no longer a best friend... I only had one wish... to spend the rest of my life being in your arms.... how could anyone possibley put someone they 'loved' threw this.... I know I probably wont ever be happy again.... never be whole... like was when I was with you.... I have nothing keeping me going.... nothing that makes me smile.... nothing that makes me feel anything... I'm just a shell feeling nothing but numbness and a horrible pain that lurks around every corner of my heart... and my mind... I dont want to go on feeling like this.... dont want to live a lie... dont want to go on feeling nothing but pain.... I cant take it anymore.... cant live in this fear.... I might be dieing anyways... why prolong the sentence I'm already going to recieve?.... why keep trying to make myself be happy? what's the use? what's the point?....